Justin is away training right now. First we heard it would be 3 weeks long, and I prepared myself for that. He'd get back from training, and we'd have two weeks to see each other before deployment. Then he had good news. He'd be training for only a week and a half. I was happy with this development, very happy.
Then he got to Suffield. One week in and they'd done nothing because of the weather and ground conditions. Things weren't looking good. It will have been 3 weeks since he left tomorrow, and he says now that the plan is for him to be back on Thursday. I really want to plan for that, but at this point, I'm afraid to.
In better news, I picked up my xbox from the post office yesterday. It was supposed to take 6 weeks to arrive, but I waited just shy of 6 months instead. Go TELUS! It's good it finally came though, because when Paul moves out (11 days btw!), I'll need something that can play DVD's, cause we were using his xbox as a DVD player. I'm fully ready for him to be gone.
I'm trying to spend as little time as possible at home right now, it's just awkward and uncomfortable. At the same time, I want to spend enough time there that I know my things aren't being damaged. 11 days to go. It feels like such a long time, but I know it will be over before I know it.
I'm planning on not getting a roommate again until June 1 at the earliest. I'd like some time to myself before I'm ready to open my house to someone again. I'm also being incredibly selective in who I choose to live with me. Paul was a pretty clear example of what I don't want, and finding someone who respects me and my belongings is at the top of my list.
Tuesday, April 19, 2011
Monday, April 18, 2011
12 days too long
I'm so tired of feeling uncomfortable in my own home. Paul's last day is April 30th, and it really can't come soon enough. He thinks and has said that I'm a brain damaged loser who's never going to get along with any roommate. The fact of the matter is that he's the only roommate I've had this much conflict with, and all my previous roommates have left for different reasons, none of which were their relationship with me.
I'm hosting Easter dinner at my house on Sunday, and I'm quite honestly a bit nervous about what he might do or say in front of people. The last thing that I need is him deciding to sit on the couch and watch tv with his girlfriend during dinner, or him deciding that during dinner is a suitable time for him to have particulaly noisy sex with his girlfriend (who happens to be a very loud faker).
I'm definitely going to have to lay down some ground rules with my future roommates. They're also a list of expectations that I have of myself as a roommate as well. Here they are:
1. Lock the doors when you're leaving. Unless I'm sitting on the couch and you can see from the sliding glass door that I'm home, don't leave through that door. It needs to be kept locked.
2. Do not store trash on the patio. I have a garbage can on the patio. When the bag in there is full, the trash needs to be taken to the dumpster.
3. Recyclables need to be kept tidy. I will provide a bin for recyclable storage, but when the bin is full, it needs to be taken to the blue box. If you want to save and return bottles for refund, they must be kept tidy as well. let me know, and we can start a bin for them also.
4. I will respect that when you have guests over, you would like to have a place to visit with them. Do the same for me. Please allow me and my guests use of the living room when I have guests over, and I'll do the same for you (clearly within reason).
5. Tidy up after yourself. Kitchen and bathroom are shared areas and need to be kept clean. A cleaning schedule will be set up for vacuuming, cleaning kitchen floors and cleaning the bathroom. Don't let dishes pile up. Wash pots and pans in sink, and put dirty dishes in the dishwasher. Wipe down the counters and stove when you're done cooking.
6. Cleaning Schedule
1st of the month - I will vacuum and wash the kitchen floor, and you will clean the bathroom
15th of the month - You will vacuum and wash the kitchen floor, and I will clean the bathroom
The 1st and 15th are just guidelines... any time in and around those dates is acceptable. If we spot clean between those dates, it should be good enough. Also, you're responsible for your room, like I am for mine.
7. If you have a problem with anything I do/have done, please approach me and let me know. I'll do the same with you. Let's not get on each other's nerves unnecessarily.
I'm hosting Easter dinner at my house on Sunday, and I'm quite honestly a bit nervous about what he might do or say in front of people. The last thing that I need is him deciding to sit on the couch and watch tv with his girlfriend during dinner, or him deciding that during dinner is a suitable time for him to have particulaly noisy sex with his girlfriend (who happens to be a very loud faker).
I'm definitely going to have to lay down some ground rules with my future roommates. They're also a list of expectations that I have of myself as a roommate as well. Here they are:
1. Lock the doors when you're leaving. Unless I'm sitting on the couch and you can see from the sliding glass door that I'm home, don't leave through that door. It needs to be kept locked.
2. Do not store trash on the patio. I have a garbage can on the patio. When the bag in there is full, the trash needs to be taken to the dumpster.
3. Recyclables need to be kept tidy. I will provide a bin for recyclable storage, but when the bin is full, it needs to be taken to the blue box. If you want to save and return bottles for refund, they must be kept tidy as well. let me know, and we can start a bin for them also.
4. I will respect that when you have guests over, you would like to have a place to visit with them. Do the same for me. Please allow me and my guests use of the living room when I have guests over, and I'll do the same for you (clearly within reason).
5. Tidy up after yourself. Kitchen and bathroom are shared areas and need to be kept clean. A cleaning schedule will be set up for vacuuming, cleaning kitchen floors and cleaning the bathroom. Don't let dishes pile up. Wash pots and pans in sink, and put dirty dishes in the dishwasher. Wipe down the counters and stove when you're done cooking.
6. Cleaning Schedule
1st of the month - I will vacuum and wash the kitchen floor, and you will clean the bathroom
15th of the month - You will vacuum and wash the kitchen floor, and I will clean the bathroom
The 1st and 15th are just guidelines... any time in and around those dates is acceptable. If we spot clean between those dates, it should be good enough. Also, you're responsible for your room, like I am for mine.
7. If you have a problem with anything I do/have done, please approach me and let me know. I'll do the same with you. Let's not get on each other's nerves unnecessarily.
Tuesday, March 15, 2011
And Go!
I've been neglecting my blog, so here's some updates.
1. I'm still not working out as much as I should. I really need to get on it. I know that I keep saying I do, and whining about it. I'm as annoyed with myself as you are. For reals though, I have to be good about this.
2. Justin is going on tour. He leaves in May. This didn't come as a complete shock, but is coming up sooner than I'd hoped it would. He'll be gone for 10 months. Some good does come of him going. He and I get a vacation together partway through his tour, and I'm extremely excited for that.
1. I'm still not working out as much as I should. I really need to get on it. I know that I keep saying I do, and whining about it. I'm as annoyed with myself as you are. For reals though, I have to be good about this.
2. Justin is going on tour. He leaves in May. This didn't come as a complete shock, but is coming up sooner than I'd hoped it would. He'll be gone for 10 months. Some good does come of him going. He and I get a vacation together partway through his tour, and I'm extremely excited for that.
Thursday, March 3, 2011
Time to buckle down!
I was doing really well. I was down 27 lbs from my heaviest, and things were progressing positively. Now, they're not. I started slacking off, and then the slacking just continued. Being sick certainly didn't help me at all, and I'm still struggling with my lungs when I do any type of strenuous cardio.
That said, they won't get better unless I train them to. I have to push my lungs just a bit further everytime I work out (which should be bumped up to 4 days/week now), and by doing so I'll teach them to last longer with every day.
That said, they won't get better unless I train them to. I have to push my lungs just a bit further everytime I work out (which should be bumped up to 4 days/week now), and by doing so I'll teach them to last longer with every day.
Tuesday, March 1, 2011
Blah blah blah, I suck at remembering to post!
So here's more updates:
1. I had a great trip to the coast. I went horseback riding twice, once with John, and once with John, Dad, and Katie. It was loads of fun, and something I'd definitely like to do again. The rest of the visit was good as well. I spent a day with Opa and Oma, just hanging out. The only downside of the trip was that I wound up sick (strep throat and double ear infections), but that's all cleared up now, and I managed not to let it put a damper on my adventures.
2. I'm a brunette again, but it changes so frequently that I'm not sure if you knew otherwise or not.
3. I spent last Saturday at the spa with Kaylan, getting fingers and toes done and a massage. I wish I was a lady of leisure who could afford to do that every weekend.
4. After the spa was Kaylan's birthday party, we had it at Billiards, and it was a good time. Unfortunately most of her friends bailed last minute, but fun was still had.
5. I'm still with Justin. It's been just over a month now, and I don't think I've ever been more comfortable in a relationship than I am with him. I'm falling for him, but it's not too fast and scary and feeling out of control. It's good, it's common ideals, and goals, and seeing a future together is easy to do.
1. I had a great trip to the coast. I went horseback riding twice, once with John, and once with John, Dad, and Katie. It was loads of fun, and something I'd definitely like to do again. The rest of the visit was good as well. I spent a day with Opa and Oma, just hanging out. The only downside of the trip was that I wound up sick (strep throat and double ear infections), but that's all cleared up now, and I managed not to let it put a damper on my adventures.
2. I'm a brunette again, but it changes so frequently that I'm not sure if you knew otherwise or not.
3. I spent last Saturday at the spa with Kaylan, getting fingers and toes done and a massage. I wish I was a lady of leisure who could afford to do that every weekend.
4. After the spa was Kaylan's birthday party, we had it at Billiards, and it was a good time. Unfortunately most of her friends bailed last minute, but fun was still had.
5. I'm still with Justin. It's been just over a month now, and I don't think I've ever been more comfortable in a relationship than I am with him. I'm falling for him, but it's not too fast and scary and feeling out of control. It's good, it's common ideals, and goals, and seeing a future together is easy to do.
Friday, February 4, 2011
Soo Much!!
Is how much I currently like Justin. I'm definitely gushing, but he's wonderful to be around, makes me feel amazing and gives me excitement for the future.
I don't know what the future holds for me, but I know who's leading me.
Not everything will come easy, it never does. If I have a future with Justin, I'm looking at a move in my future. Probably to 'central' Canada. I'm ok with that, and with any other changes to my life that being with him might bring, surprisingly ok.
I don't know what the future holds for me, but I know who's leading me.
Not everything will come easy, it never does. If I have a future with Justin, I'm looking at a move in my future. Probably to 'central' Canada. I'm ok with that, and with any other changes to my life that being with him might bring, surprisingly ok.
Wednesday, February 2, 2011
Haha ew.
Why would a fat woman tie a scarf (not a belt, but a scarf) around her waist. It only accentuates her fat. I can't stand her.
Sent wirelessly from my BlackBerry device on the Bell network.
Envoyé sans fil par mon terminal mobile BlackBerry sur le réseau de Bell.
Sent wirelessly from my BlackBerry device on the Bell network.
Envoyé sans fil par mon terminal mobile BlackBerry sur le réseau de Bell.
Tuesday, February 1, 2011
So far still smiling :)
I've gone on two dates with Justin now, and I'm very interested. He's refreshing to be with, makes me smile and laugh, and has treated me with respect... which is strange for me. I'm more used to feeling pressured to put out, pushed for physical contact and worrying about whether I've either gone to far, or not far enough, and all in all, left feeling ill at ease with new relationships.
I'm getting to know him. He's getting to know me. We talk, and talk, and talk. Our first date started at 6pm with dinner. We finally left the restaurant just before 11pm, having found things to talk about throughout the date. The second date started with climbing at 3pm (yay new climbing buddy), led to dinner at about 6:15pm. Seven hours after the date started it ended, at 10pm. So far dates have ended with hugs, and I'm ok with that. I do want so badly to kiss him though.
I'm seeing him again tomorrow night, he's coming over for a swim, and I'm hoping will stay for dinner (I'm putting a roast in the slowcooker). I'm beyond excited, and have butterflies doing trick in my stomach just thinking about him. Here's hoping this isn't jinxed by me writing about it. Fingers crossed, and wish me luck.
I'm getting to know him. He's getting to know me. We talk, and talk, and talk. Our first date started at 6pm with dinner. We finally left the restaurant just before 11pm, having found things to talk about throughout the date. The second date started with climbing at 3pm (yay new climbing buddy), led to dinner at about 6:15pm. Seven hours after the date started it ended, at 10pm. So far dates have ended with hugs, and I'm ok with that. I do want so badly to kiss him though.
I'm seeing him again tomorrow night, he's coming over for a swim, and I'm hoping will stay for dinner (I'm putting a roast in the slowcooker). I'm beyond excited, and have butterflies doing trick in my stomach just thinking about him. Here's hoping this isn't jinxed by me writing about it. Fingers crossed, and wish me luck.
Thursday, January 27, 2011
Lyrics on my mind: You Save Me
This song just came on my iPod. Sometimes it feels as though I'm the person he's singing about. Just waiting for the person God has planned for me, the person who's going to help me make sense of this crazy life.
Every now and then
I get a little lost
The strings all get tangled
The wires all get crossed
Every now and then
I’m right upon the edge
Danglin’ my toes out over the ledge
I just thank God you’re here
(Chorus)
['Cause] when I’m a bullet shot out of a gun
['Cause] when I’m a firecracker comin’ undone
When I’m a fugitive ready to run
All wild-eyed and crazy
No matter where my reckless soul takes me
Baby you save me
It’s hard lovin’ a man
That’s got a gypsy soul
I don’t know how you do it
I’m not sure how you know
The perfect thing to say
To save me from myself
You’re the angel that believes in me
Like nobody else
And I thank God you do
(Chorus)
Well I know I don’t tell you nearly enough
I couldn’t live one day without your love
When I’m a ship tossed around on the waves
Up on a high wire that’s ready to break
When I’ve had just about all I can take
Baby, you,
Baby you save me
(Chorus)
Kenny Chesney 2005
Every now and then
I get a little lost
The strings all get tangled
The wires all get crossed
Every now and then
I’m right upon the edge
Danglin’ my toes out over the ledge
I just thank God you’re here
(Chorus)
['Cause] when I’m a bullet shot out of a gun
['Cause] when I’m a firecracker comin’ undone
When I’m a fugitive ready to run
All wild-eyed and crazy
No matter where my reckless soul takes me
Baby you save me
It’s hard lovin’ a man
That’s got a gypsy soul
I don’t know how you do it
I’m not sure how you know
The perfect thing to say
To save me from myself
You’re the angel that believes in me
Like nobody else
And I thank God you do
(Chorus)
Well I know I don’t tell you nearly enough
I couldn’t live one day without your love
When I’m a ship tossed around on the waves
Up on a high wire that’s ready to break
When I’ve had just about all I can take
Baby, you,
Baby you save me
(Chorus)
Kenny Chesney 2005
Friday, January 21, 2011
We went out last night
Drank too much beer last night, lot more than we wanted to.
It was seemingly innocuous. Meet up with Mark and Kaylan at the bar, have a few beers and a plate of wings. Chat for a while, enjoy good company. Go home, bed, work in the am.
Mark didn't have to work today. He had free reign to drink, as I'd offered him a couch if necessary. That was the start of the problem. Next problem, we had a shot. Thankfully Kaylan (the best bff a girl can ask for) was willing to stay sober, and be our driver. This allowed for more drinks, on a Thursday night, with work at 8am the following morning.
We successfully made it back to my condo just after 1, Mark passed out on the couch, Kaylan and I in my bed. This morning was a reminder of last night's poor choices.
Sometimes though, you just have to have fun, and I laughed more last night than I have in a long long time. Today might be a bit rough, but I'd do it again on another Thursday night.
Out Last Night - Kenny Chesney 2009
It was seemingly innocuous. Meet up with Mark and Kaylan at the bar, have a few beers and a plate of wings. Chat for a while, enjoy good company. Go home, bed, work in the am.
Mark didn't have to work today. He had free reign to drink, as I'd offered him a couch if necessary. That was the start of the problem. Next problem, we had a shot. Thankfully Kaylan (the best bff a girl can ask for) was willing to stay sober, and be our driver. This allowed for more drinks, on a Thursday night, with work at 8am the following morning.
We successfully made it back to my condo just after 1, Mark passed out on the couch, Kaylan and I in my bed. This morning was a reminder of last night's poor choices.
Sometimes though, you just have to have fun, and I laughed more last night than I have in a long long time. Today might be a bit rough, but I'd do it again on another Thursday night.
Out Last Night - Kenny Chesney 2009
Tuesday, January 18, 2011
Working out is working.
Here are my current stats:
5'7
152 lbs
Chest 35"
Waist 29"
Hips 42"
That's a total of 28 lbs lost since last April. I'm pretty happy with the direction the scale is going.
Working out tonight as well.
5'7
152 lbs
Chest 35"
Waist 29"
Hips 42"
That's a total of 28 lbs lost since last April. I'm pretty happy with the direction the scale is going.
Working out tonight as well.
Wednesday, January 5, 2011
Wow
I missed a whole month. I guess I've been busy. Out of town with work for a bit, and working every weekend at the bar. I'm a bit troubled that I haven't gotten any beer tub shifts since my 3rd weekend there, and am beginning to think I may need to look at working elsewhere.
Christmas was alright. I missed being with my family, and am definitely looking forward to a visit with them soon.
The roommate situation is becoming more and more tenuous daily. I'm having a hard time with having him there. I really need to figure things out to make enough that I don't need him.
That said, I kinda sucked at the whole progress on credit cards thing over December, but I'm back to being focused on getting rid of that debt now again.
Christmas was alright. I missed being with my family, and am definitely looking forward to a visit with them soon.
The roommate situation is becoming more and more tenuous daily. I'm having a hard time with having him there. I really need to figure things out to make enough that I don't need him.
That said, I kinda sucked at the whole progress on credit cards thing over December, but I'm back to being focused on getting rid of that debt now again.
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