I thought I'd try another ramble.

I haven't written for a while again.  Some stuff's gone down in my personal life, and I just haven't felt much drive to continue to write.

I'm back though, and going to give you a bit of a recap.

I started a new job on October 16th.  I'm working coatcheck, and occasionally (like one in six shifts) beertub at a bar.  So far it's been good, and has let me put some money where it needs to go.  It's not the most enjoyable job ever, but the people are great, and I can see myself being there for a while.

Just has essentially cut me out of her life.  I made a mistake that upset her.  I personally feel like she's overreacting, but it doesn't seem like I'm going to change her reaction. Things just feel distant and weird between us, and I'm beginning to wonder if working to maintain the friendship is worth my time.  It's not that I don't care, or that I didn't enjoy having her as a friend, but at the same time, the friendship was a lot of work and stress for me.  I worry most about how her young daughter is going to be affected by all that's gone on, and how her mother is handling (or failing to handle) any aspect of her life.

It's really hard for me to sit and listen and hear her talk about how unfair her husband is being, when I see his reaction as completely reasonable.  It's hard for me to hear her talk about what she's 'entitled' to when given what she's done, she's honestly entitled to support for her daughter, but not herself.  She says again and again that she knows she doesn't deserve anything, but the fact of the matter is she still feels entitled, and unjustifiably so.

I don't know how to be supportive and a good friend when I'm so fundamentally opposed to the actions she's taken and continues to take.  I guess I'll just wait and see where things go.

My younger brother was here for the last week.  He was laid off from his job at the autobody shop, and needed to find some good paying work quickly.  He came out here to look for a rig job, and thankfully it only took him a week to find something.  He left Edmonton at noon yesterday and went to a short job in Strathmore.  It was fun having him around.  He's way lower maintenance than my older brother, but we did a lot too.  Checked out Telus World of Science, went climbing, did some driving around, grocery shopping, WEM, and also hung out at home. He's easy to get along with, and I'm glad I got to see him here.